HRT Diary for a Perimenopausal Woman

So I haven't written for a while. For no other reason than I keep forgetting.  I really should have been as really since the dose has been upped (to two Lenzetto squirts) there have been problems. 1) I last mentioned about my eye issue.  This became pretty much persistent and was making me look and feel awful. It was exceptionally painful, itchy and unsightly. I have found a great spray called 'Thyme Out' made from thyme is amazing at cooling and stopping the itch. But, ultimately not stopping it. 2) I haven't had a period since I started taking the double dose apart from that initial early bleed.  I am currently about to finish my 2nd cycle of Utrogestan following the double dosing. So lets see. 3) I'd stopped sleeping through the night and whilst waking up exceptionally hot. It wasn't night sweats. It got so bad that I emailed my Newson Health doctor. I told her about my eyes being awful and the no period, night heat, etc. That I couldn't really feel any d...

 So I've been double dosing for 2 weeks now. I don't really notice too much difference. I have felt a little low.  But, I have started going back into the office and a few other things.  I did my first 3 days back in the office this week for 18 months and felt exceptionally tired by day 3.  I got home, the house smelt where David hadn't emptied the food bin. So I was exhausted, but ended up tidying the whole kitchen, filling the dishwasher etc and hoovering (so much for me apparently doing nothing around the house....). This peed me off.  Husband then accidently stood on my toe and I went berserk, quite over the top. Something happened a bit later as well where he didn't apologise to me for getting something wrong (he had spoken to me like utter shite as if I was mad for saying Kadina Cox had MS and he was very insistent she has CP). I googled it, he was wrong.  I launched... still no apology by the way.   Its a bit like PMT really.  I'm not ...

Yesterday, the doctor asked me if I'd had any breakthrough bleeding.  To which I responded no. Which obviously means the very next day, my last day of progesterone and 3 days before I'd expect to start bleeding.  I did! Nothing else exciting happened, it proceeded exactly the same as my other periods.  But thought I would make a note. I'll continue in my normal routine of 2 weeks on progesterone and 2 weeks off.

 So while it is all fresh in my mind..... I explained that I had huge success with the Lenzetto and the changes I'd had. She was absolutely amazed that I had so much benefit from just one pump of Lenzetto a day.  I must absorb well. Then mentioned that my memory was deteriorating again. Where she said that I should go on testosterone. Testosterone is very much for memory, motivation etc.  and Louise Newson is starting to prescribe this more and ore from the first appointment.  I wouldn't say I am reluctant to go on testosterone. But, as its tricky to get on the NHS as despite being one of our hormones... its not licensed for women in the UK. I know its either going to cost me money or be a bit of hassle. Apparently, we can use the one for men on the NHS and just use half the dose, but the GP would need to be on board with it. Once you go on it, its not immediate like the Oestrogen but takes approx. 6 weeks to see an improvement. I mentioned that it had improved a lit...

 I haven't written much this month as there is nothing really to write... Everything has been pretty good, although I do feel my memory is deteriorating again. In fact so much so that I realise that it had got better!  I have my follow up appointment tonight with Newson Health, so that will be super interesting. As it turns out, my one and only problem is ironically, despite all the other improvements are what I contacted them about in the first place! 

 So yesterday I felt fine.  But eyes started to itch.  Today they a both swollen and prickling itching.  So I have taken antihistamine.  Interesting I am notably feeling quite low again. I always used to think that my eyes going made me feel very low. I now wonder if its just my hormones are lacking something so I happen to get both symptoms.... or its just that my body is fighting something and this also makes me feel low? 

 Woke up yesterday with what I would say low mood. Generally just felt very , meh....   I tried lifting with music, work, etc. Whilst music worked briefly it didn't really last. There was no reason for it. So I've kept a note just in case there is routine to this. Incidentally I am typing this on day 25 and I feel absolutely fine with no low mood at all. So it was odd.  Had quite a bit to drink as I went out with the girls after work. Again, no night sweats, barely any dehydration and feel in a great mood today :-) My eyes have been OK.... but there is an itching or something. But not what I would call a breakout so I haven't mentioned as a * in the title.